A Better Me
I have been in a shell lately. I’ve been in my own little world where I have escaped to elevate, to grow and to process some things. I come here often and I can’t lie and say that dropping from the face of the earth doesn’t affect my relationships…it does. Some of my family and friends don’t understand why I withdraw and they take it personally, but this is what I must do to take care of me.
Taking time to do serious inner work is a priority for my life and it does require me to separate myself from other people while I study, pray, meditate, process and create. I’ve been this way all my life. I go through seasons in which I retreat into my inner world and don’t want to talk to or be around anyone. I’ve learned to be more balanced, but these seasons of solitude and isolation are necessary for me when I’m transitioning to another spiritual level.
There are many people in my life who are similar to me in this way, and so we understand, respect and accept this aspect of each other. There are other people in my life who are nothing like me in this way, and so they don’t understand why I must be to myself and feel as though I’m cutting them off. I am cutting them off, but not for any reason other than…if I don’t feed my spirit, I will starve to death. And if I don’t isolate myself, I will not be able to accurately download what I need to feed my spirit. This is one of the few times when it is ok to be selfish. And its not really all that selfish because if I don’t take the time to become a better me, then I’m no good to anyone else anyway. –love, sj
